When I was a lot younger
someone told me that the one I love would probably not the one who I will spend the rest of my life with her
oh well life is full of surprises
I knew that we probably will end up with miserable experience when I start to realise I have a feeling for her
I just can't help but falling for her and I knew that this is gone hurt both of us
It is so hard to see the one you love always crying and you know this will pass
I tried to blind myself for not seeing her crying just because someone who really cares about her told me to go away
It was a very very difficult decision
I thought it would be selfish to put everybody else who cares about her so much in miserable just because of me, which I also totally understand that she will forget me after a period of time by not talking to her. I think I am very stupid on that.
but I did it, I feel happy and felt sorry for you baby
Pretending not care about you, not loving you, not replying your SMS, not talking to you, it's seriously so bloody miserable, which I couldn't tell anyone but myself.
I wish I can tell you how much I love you and hug you to sleep every nights, seeing you smile in the next morning is the best thing to start everyday.
It's been 6 months
things are settling down
you've found a job, and
seeing you do all kind of stuff on FB make me feel a little better
Finally I get a chance to let all this shit out after so long....phew
live well baby
it's a complicated feeling that I wish you will see this and also not to see this
